Susan wanted me to listen to this song because she felt like it applied to my life so much.  When I started to listen I couldn’t help but to get emotional because it was something that I was probably choosing not to see or believe.  Then while listening to this song like 100 times, an unexpected thing happened.

I got bitter and resentful instead of feeling peaceful and comforted.  It made me think about how far I am from where I wanted to be and why I wasn’t where I thought I was going to be.  The more I listened to this song, the more it made me resent the fact that He was in control instead of me.

I know that Steven Curtis Chapman had wrote this song after his daughter passing away so it puts things in perspective of his brokenness and heartache.  But here I am sounding like a brat complaining of the things that I am lacking in my life.

I hope and pray that I could sing/listen to this song with more grateful heart and learn to accept and embrace the fact that God is in control instead of me.  And be thankful that He is.  Because right now, at this moment, I can’t be….

 

This is not how it should be
This is not how it could be
This is how it is
Our God is in control

This is not how it will be
When we finally will see
We’ll see with our own eyes
He was always in control

And we’ll sing
Holy Holy Holy is in our God
And we will finally really understand what it means
So we’ll sing
Holy Holy Holy is in our God
While we’re waiting for that day

This is not where we planned to be
When we started this journey
This is where we are
And Our God is in control

Though this first taste is bitter
There will be sweetness forever
When we finally taste and see
That Our God is in control

And we’ll sing
Holy Holy Holy is in our God
And we will finally really understand what it means
So we’ll sing
Holy Holy Holy is in our God
While we’re waiting for that day
We’re waiting for that day
We’ll keep on waiting for that day

And we will know
Our God is in control
Holy Holy Holy
Holy Holy Holy
Our God is in control
Holy Holy Holy
Our God is in control
Holy Holy Holy

Advertisements